Had my blood tested again on Wednesday and got the phone call today that my endocrinologist is upping my dosage of Tirosint from 112mcg to 125mcg. I knew it wasn't quite right. I still want to probably go back to a natural desiccated thyroid replacement but for right now I desperately need to get my body in check since school is here come the 20th. Brain fog + trying to concentrate =/= success.
She also suggested I start taking Biotin daily to help with hair, nail, and skin health.
8.17.2012
8.12.2012
I Define
I'm feeling quite a bit better today. I can partly blame it on this song, which I've had on repeat a few times today.
Maybe it's because I felt so badly yesterday that I'm as optimistic as I am, because I've found that I tend to do that after low times -- force myself to have better days and such -- but I feel empowered and like I can do this, no matter how long it takes. I also do not want to allow hypothyroidism to define me.
I define who I am, not my thyroid.
Maybe it's because I felt so badly yesterday that I'm as optimistic as I am, because I've found that I tend to do that after low times -- force myself to have better days and such -- but I feel empowered and like I can do this, no matter how long it takes. I also do not want to allow hypothyroidism to define me.
I define who I am, not my thyroid.
8.11.2012
Another Update (and a bit of emotional release)
I've been MIA. I've been sleeping and when I'm not sleeping I'm usually not at home. I've slept the entire summer away; 70% of my time is spent in bed. To top it all off my concentration abilities are failing lately something fierce.
So where are we? I was diagnosed with Hashimoto's disease, which I still don't feel educated properly on. I have goiter (severe swelling of the thyroid) but an ultrasound didn't show any nodules or worrisome areas. I'm on my fourth week of Tirosint, another synthetic thyroid hormone (T4).
I don't know if it's the right dose for me (112mg), but I still feel like crap. I have another blood test on the 15th. Like I said I am still sleeping like crazy, I am still occasionally finding myself in a low grade depression, I'm still having issues with my weight, I'm still losing my hair.
Even though my Armour thyroid obviously wasn't at the right dosage, I feel like I felt better on that then I do ont he Tirosint.
I was also told that I have polycystic ovary syndrome (PCOS), which I also don't know much about at this point, but that's why I have elevated testosterone. My endocrinologist has suggested going back on birth control to solve my symptoms, but I don't know if I want to do that right now, so I haven't. My energy is depleted and I'm not feeling even motivated to do research.
I'm considering going to a Naturopath.
Honestly.. I feel so lost right now. I'm writing this blog with very little idea of where to begin and possibly less optimism at the moment that this is going to get better. I'm angry, really. I'm angry because I know who I could be if I didn't have underactive thyroid. I'm angry because I'm afraid that I'll have to deal with this for the rest of my life. I'm angry because I don't think many people in my life understand how truly truly awful this is. I'm angry because I have goals and dreams and aspirations that are being put on hold because of this. And I'm angry because I don't understand, but who could possibly understand why they have hypothyroidism? I'm also angry because I feel like I'm letting all of this just take control.. But how can I fight it? Everyday? I'm so exhausted of fighting my hypothyroidism. I'm exhausted of being exhausted, of being tired, of having a lingering depression, of gaining weight, of losing my hair, of not being able to concentrate, of brain fog.
And I'm angry because it's 4:30 in the morning and I'm writing this, when I should be sleeping like a normal person, but because I slept until 2 in the afternoon and lounged and such until 8 in the evening and then finally did a few productive things at 10 at night I'm actually awake by 2am. Here soon I'll get tired again and start the cycle. If I didn't force myself to be out of bed I'd sleep all day long, even without the productivity at 10pm or the awakeness at 2am.
I'm frustrated tonight/today/whatever you want to call it. I'm trying not to whine, or complain, but I just had to let all of that out. I don't know if I feel better, but I'll sleep and hopefully when I wake I won't be in quite as much as a down mood. Maybe be more optimistic.
So where are we? I was diagnosed with Hashimoto's disease, which I still don't feel educated properly on. I have goiter (severe swelling of the thyroid) but an ultrasound didn't show any nodules or worrisome areas. I'm on my fourth week of Tirosint, another synthetic thyroid hormone (T4).
I don't know if it's the right dose for me (112mg), but I still feel like crap. I have another blood test on the 15th. Like I said I am still sleeping like crazy, I am still occasionally finding myself in a low grade depression, I'm still having issues with my weight, I'm still losing my hair.
Even though my Armour thyroid obviously wasn't at the right dosage, I feel like I felt better on that then I do ont he Tirosint.
I was also told that I have polycystic ovary syndrome (PCOS), which I also don't know much about at this point, but that's why I have elevated testosterone. My endocrinologist has suggested going back on birth control to solve my symptoms, but I don't know if I want to do that right now, so I haven't. My energy is depleted and I'm not feeling even motivated to do research.
I'm considering going to a Naturopath.
Honestly.. I feel so lost right now. I'm writing this blog with very little idea of where to begin and possibly less optimism at the moment that this is going to get better. I'm angry, really. I'm angry because I know who I could be if I didn't have underactive thyroid. I'm angry because I'm afraid that I'll have to deal with this for the rest of my life. I'm angry because I don't think many people in my life understand how truly truly awful this is. I'm angry because I have goals and dreams and aspirations that are being put on hold because of this. And I'm angry because I don't understand, but who could possibly understand why they have hypothyroidism? I'm also angry because I feel like I'm letting all of this just take control.. But how can I fight it? Everyday? I'm so exhausted of fighting my hypothyroidism. I'm exhausted of being exhausted, of being tired, of having a lingering depression, of gaining weight, of losing my hair, of not being able to concentrate, of brain fog.
And I'm angry because it's 4:30 in the morning and I'm writing this, when I should be sleeping like a normal person, but because I slept until 2 in the afternoon and lounged and such until 8 in the evening and then finally did a few productive things at 10 at night I'm actually awake by 2am. Here soon I'll get tired again and start the cycle. If I didn't force myself to be out of bed I'd sleep all day long, even without the productivity at 10pm or the awakeness at 2am.
I'm frustrated tonight/today/whatever you want to call it. I'm trying not to whine, or complain, but I just had to let all of that out. I don't know if I feel better, but I'll sleep and hopefully when I wake I won't be in quite as much as a down mood. Maybe be more optimistic.
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