I haven't updated in an absurdly long time, but I think you all know how it is (not that this blog has many followers). Life got busy with school and two part time jobs and, unfortunately my thyroid has been put on the back burner since I was functioning like half a normal person. But, as per normal, things have changed again and I have been reminded of the roller coaster that I'm on.
I can't even remember what I wrote last about so forgive me if I repeat anything, but here is what's going on with me:
The fall semester was one of my most difficult to date and I wasn't able to give my thyroid the proper attention it requires. I stopped seeing the endocrinologist that I was referred to over the summer because I didn't think she was doing me any better than my PCP - who can do the same for a lot less money on my part. That said, my lovely primary care doctor's office has seemed to taken on a bit too much than they are realistically staffed for and I haven't been overly thrilled with their care or availability. In the recent past I have begun to display all of my lovely symptoms and upon calling to make an appointment I was told that to see my regular doc I'd have to schedule two weeks out - anyone who has severe thyroid issues like myself is plenty aware of how that period of wait just won't do. So, I scheduled a more appropriate timed appointment (this coming Monday) with an entirely different physician. Maybe I'll get lucky and this one will actually care.
I'm frustrated, and I feel a bit at my breaking point. I need to start studying this information again and get myself back up on the wagon of improving my thyroid issues. I'm worn out and school is approaching quickly, yet again. It seems I have issues every 4 months or so that I need to readdress.
Maybe it will make me feel better to spell out what I really want. Maybe it will give me a sense of what to expect and what not to settle for.
I want someone to care. I want someone to realize that I should not be feeling this way. I want someone to help. I want someone who knows what they are doing. I want someone who doesn't just look at numbers. I want someone to tell me, "No, Rachel, you don't have to feel this way the rest of your life. There are ways to help hypothyroidism and I am going to put you on the path towards that."
Sigh. Maybe someday I will find that. I hope so. A coworker of mine has hypothyroidism and she says that her doc is something incredible. Maybe I will call her tomorrow. Worth a try, right?
Until next time.....
